2/12 Robert Hill

His Story:

Father: Too old for that (breast feeding)

Robert: Perfect size nipple, brown aureola

His father was a weak man... never tried to win his attention. 

He could not individuate from his mother and side with his father...

Breast feeding was also comforting to her.

His grandparents baby sat him.

He reclined on her bosom. He also sucked from her nipples too.

As an adult, she, bragged providing that service when his mother was not around.

Robert was embarrassed. 

He feels disgust now as an adult.

Today he is doing better to keep the appropriate boundaries.

I wished my father took more authority.

He feels a subconscious repulsion when women get close to him.

He still wants the relationship with women.

 

Scott:

What do you feel in your body right now?

What is the most prominent physical sensation?

I feel raw and exposed.

He feels even more embarrassed when the cameras are off.

He feels angry.

Scott:

What movement does the anger want.

Robert: I want to push all of you guys away.

Scott: Do you want that or do you want to push the nipples of your mother and grandmother away?

You have this intense image of your father giving up and turning you into that.

Rober: Yes, what a whimp!

Your desire to pull away, comes from feeling that your body is not yours.

So who has been comforted?

Women. Both of these women were using you to suck their breasts for comfort.

Although Robert had a Philipino mom, he was raised in San Diego.

Scott: How tender do you feel about this boy?

Scott: You are pushing this boy away...