1/8/2026 Derek vignettes

His dad used obscene language when describing his mom

VHS with porn ejaculation caused him to throw up

?His father's naked pic

His fucked up dad's friend

credit card fraud

Him in his limo with a girl doing a lap top

HE was 14 when his father asked a woman to have sex with him.

Scott:

How do you feel right now?

Nomneness

Grief

I feel hate for myself

Scott: Say  more about that

Do you feel a conflict between arousal and disgust?

There is a lot of that in these vignettes

There is also a lot of violence

What kind of porn do you watch?

A man humiliating a woman

Say that again:

rough sex, humiliating a woman, woman giving a blowjob

How many years of your dad grooming did you have to endure?

If someone said the same story you said, would you name that as grooming?

Why to you turn against yourself though?

You are not the monster, you father is psychopath, sadistic and Machiavellian.

They call that the "dark triad" in psychology.

There is a delight you father feels in harming you.

This is why he is evil.

It is sexually arousing for him to harm.

It sexual abuse. repeated, chronic

It is emotional and spiritual abuse (your father represents God to you).

You are going to need the kindness of other men to learn to be kind to yourselves every time you fuck up.

Any part of you that hate will be hostile to you.